Confusion

Confusion

Have you ever felt something was just right and then it was taken away?

How about when you feel like Jesus led you to the perfect place and then it was gone?

Confusion reigns in my heart without answers. I just don't get it. Maybe I never will.

I really felt God led me to my job at the Lighthouse. I loved it there. I loved the people. I loved the job. I was content to stay there for a long time. And then I got sick. Then I got sicker. And sicker.  Ended up in the hospital.

Weeks went by and I felt I needed to resign and let go of the job. I had no idea how long it would be until I was strong enough to go back. Didn't feel it was fair to keep them hanging.

The problem is... My heart is still there but my body can't handle it. I am still to weak and my immune system is toast and couldn't handle all the germs anywhere and especially there.

So why? Why did God give me that perfect job and then take it away. This is something I struggle with on a daily basis.

When I look at the scriptures I see:

Proverbs 3:5-6 – Trust in the Lord with all your heart and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight.

Jeremiah 29:11 – “For I know the plans that I have for you” declares the Lord, “plans for welfare and not for calamity to give you a future and a hope.”

I know these are both true. I know I can trust Jesus to lead me down the right path. Even if I don't see the reason for it. I know that Jesus sees the whole picture. I only see a sliver of it. He sees how it all fits together and I only see the random pieces of the puzzle that don't make sense.

So, I will wait and pray and see how He guides me. I don't want to push any doors open that He wants closed. I have been known to do that and it doesn't work out so well.

Consequently, I will live in the land of confusion until God gives me the next move I need to make. I will wait patiently (or not so patiently) until I see the path I need to take.  He is faithful and He will do it.

Until Next Time,
Charyl aka Mom8isme