Psalm 46:10

God has been speaking to me lately. The verse He has been giving me over and over is Psalm 46:10 – “Cease striving and know that I am God.” You see I have a tendency to try to figure everything out. I am constantly striving and strategizing and I am weary from it. I need to relax and trust that God is totally in control and He doesn’t need my help. The illustration I have always used for this concept is a mom in the kitchen making cookies. The kids want to help and are all over the place putting ingredients in and wanting to take over, spoons here, a scraper there – you get the picture. The cookies don’t quite taste like mom’s would have tasted AND it would have taken her a fraction of the time. I often feel that is the way God feels when I am in the midst of everything trying to help Him out. What He wants is for me to TRUST Him and relax, and keep my fingers out of the cookie bowl. I don’t know how many hundreds of times a day I have had to say that verse recently. It reminds me to let go. I don’t have to be the one to figure out the future. God already knows it. Things always seem to work out better when I am not striving. God knows when our house will sell. He knows what will happen with SA and his issues. Jobs will be acquired and finances will work out. It is so much better when I am relaxing and trusting God.

Where does a Mother go to Resign?

You would think I would have learned by now. Obviously I haven’t. SA’s antics still catch me off guard. Yesterday, got a credit card bill – hmmmmmmm there was a charge I had no clue about. Started looking for my card, missing from my wallet. Yep, stole my card and ran up charges. Arghhhhhhh When I asked him about it he becomes irate “Why do you always blame me?” “X probably did it.” Right, I don’t know, it might be because of all the stolen stuff I find in your room every time I check. Or maybe it’s because you have a tendency to steal anything that isn’t behind lock and key or cemented down. Sometimes I just get so fed up.

No one warned me of the stress level involved with adopting kids with serious issues. 20 years of daily stress has taken its toll. I think maybe I have finally reached my limit. Oops, that’s right mother’s can’t resign. Shucks!!!!!!!!!!!

Eliana Turns 6 1/2

Yes, we celebrate 1/2 birthdays. More reason to celebrate!!!!!!!!!!!!

Kyleigh's 1st time in our Pool

Kyleigh and Holly enjoying the pool.